A cruel surprise

My goddess, AstroDomina graced me with the knowledge of her going on a date tonight. Not so much a date as a plan to fuck. A fuck date. My goddess has pointed out to me that she has no interest in dating and uses men as doormats. She didn't have to let me in on this knowledge but she must have been feeling extra cruel today. Cruel in this context means two things.

1. She knows how my brain works, always thinking and always wondering. Wanting to know more and more. She wants me to feel pain and suffer

2. Cruelty can be replaced by caring, for she knows what's best for me and what I deserve.


She told me early on in the day today that she was going on this "date" to make sure I had to think about it all day. I was naturally inquisitive. Why him? Why does this guy get to fuck my goddess? Why is he so deserving? Is he manly? Is he an alpha? My goddess is a true goddess so she isn't even attracted to dominant men, even in her vanilla life. Is he good looking? He hasn't done anything for her. I need to know. To my goddess he is just a tool to get laid. But the thought of him feeling like he played his cards right, that he earned her, aggravates me. I can only hope he has a huge cock to please my beautiful goddess.

She has also been so kind to not only make me pay for her pedicure and manicure that she got in preparation for this "date" but she is also having me pay for the date. I feel so lucky and happy.

Now I'm just here waiting.... waiting... thinking.... What's going on? How's the date going? She isn't really keeping me in on the loop. I hope she's having a good time. I think her knowing how crazy I am going as I wait is just making her more excited.

I've never truly been cuckolded before. It's such a confusing emotional feeling. Thank you goddess for allowing me to be part of this. I truly just want you to be happy

My goddess might even clean his cum load with a dirty sock and make me smell it and put it in my face...
I truly am so lucky.
Thank you goddess

Beginning Thoughts: An Introduction

This blog is a dedication, an ode, to my goddess, Sydney Lee, AstroDomina. I have been fortunate enough to be blessed with the name AstroBitch by the goddess herself. She has even outright told me I belong to her...

As much as I would like to take credit for this public display, it was the idea of my goddess. I am not yet thoughtful enough to take this kind of initiative, but under guidance I will learn.

I have had such a burning desire to know her, to learn about her, to learn from her, to socialize with her... Yes I suppose I am needy, but wouldn't knowing my goddess more make me a better bitch able to serve her better? So I think. But as my goddess made clear after a harassing amount of questions for knowledge, what I think doesn't fucking matter.


So this blog will serve as a meeting location for me to gather my thoughts, and for my goddess to enlighten me when she has time. I don't have a way with words and I'm not good at expressing the turmoils of my heart but to please my goddess, of course I will. I feel helpless desperately that nothing is enough anyhow, not even this. T
hat's good though, right? Cursed is the day that I feel like I have done enough for her. And cursed is the day that I don't continue to want to do more for her. That will be the day I have failed myself, and worse yet, failed her.

I'm rambling again. I wish I was a better writer. I wish I was better to gathering my thoughts. I wish I was a better person, a better slave. I hope I can be for you AstroDomina.